I’m off my meds.
Words that can inspire fear. God knows my wife was skeptical when I told her. Of course she’s seen me try and fail to manage without them.
"You’re like a diabetic that needs their insulin."
"If you had high blood pressure you wouldn’t stop taking your medication."
And I don’t mean to romanticize my condition, but I want the highs and the lows. When I feel good I want to feel good and I want to feel bad when I know I should feel bad.
I want my racing thoughts (sometimes),
I want to be me even if it’s hard.