FEELS SO GOOOOD
People who follow this blog even a little probably know that I’m a special education teacher and case manager. What I have also had to become over the years is a math teacher, to the point where I got a provisional license this year so I could teach a credit bearing math class to a group of mostly non-SpEd students, and I will be starting a masters program in math instruction and curriculum this summer.
Now apparently I’m being taken seriously in this new role because next year I’ll be part of a three-teacher rotation between groups of 7th and 8th graders, in addition to teaching two (not one, two) alternative but not necessarily SpEd math classes.
I’m excited to play a bigger role in my school, and I’m really excited to have an opportunity to teach high achieving students. But I’m also worried. I’m worried that my expanding role as a math teacher is going to detract from the work I need to do as a special educator and case manager. I’m worried because I’m not on the same level as the other two math teachers in terms of content knowledge and pedagogy and I don’t want to be the weak link. I worry about having to teach, case manage, do graduate work, and be a father and husband all at the same time, and that I will end up not doing any of those things particularly well.
I also thrive on challenge, and work well under pressure. And I keep reminding myself that I’m in this position because there are people that believe in me and my ability to handle it. So that’s what I’ll do; fucking handle it.